Key Finding 1

In a longitudinal study on childhood sexual abuse, researchers observed a repeated pattern: early physiological development in little girls exposed to sustained psychological and physical stress. These little girls often reported puberty years earlier than their peers, some as early as seven. Chronic cortisol elevation, and disrupted hormonal regulation were common. This was not incidental. The body, when trained to anticipate threat, begins to rewire itself. It grows up too fast. Reference 1

They also found that in many of these cases, the hippocampus shrank. Memory loss is not metaphorical in these little girls. Childhood becomes a fog. It becomes medically inaccessible. But the body remembers in postural shifts. And in flinches. And the inability to sit comfortably next to someone who means no harm. Reference 2

Clinicians also observe elevated rates of gastrointestinal disorders, metabolic, endocrine and reproductive syndromes (like PCOS), chronic pain, migraines, and autoimmune issues in these little girls. These conditions are often medically treated in isolation, often categorised as idiopathic, never traced back to the sustained psychological wound underlying them.

On the mental health front, studies across decades show survivors face significantly higher odds of developing PTSD/C-PTSD, major depressive disorder, anxiety disorders, eating disorders, chronic sleep dysfunction, and suicidality. Dissociation is common in these little girls. Memory becomes unreliable, identity splinters, and the self becomes adaptive and evasive. 

Amber data from research in Australia puts the scale in perspective: nearly 41% of suicide attempts, 35% of self‑harm cases, and 21% of clinical depression can be traced back to childhood maltreatment (sexual abuse included) after adjusting for genetics and environment. Reference 3

Key Finding 2

These little girls do not remember childhood. Memory becomes erased by design. The hippocampus, clouded by neurobiological stress, fails to archive the most important phase of a little girl’s life. Recollection, once expected, becomes impossible. The child becomes a hollowed ledger, body aging faster than their capacity to articulate.

These bodies then become burdened with unnatural weight gain. Disordered eating becomes both punishment and anesthesia. The padded, expanded, shame stricken little girl in the mirror becomes a stranger. Muscles ache and skin itches.

Two worlds exist:
World A: where the perpetrators are “normal cousins,” smiling, greeting, nestled in family rituals. 
World B: the hidden hours, the private hours, where violence happens behind closed doors.

These little girls perform in World A with surgical precision: smiles, laughter, gift‑giving, obedience, learning to use a computer, learning to repair broken radio controlled cars. So their family feels safe. So the secret remains a secret. 
World B is where they learn to flinch at innocence. Where touch becomes threat. Where their body answers every unwanted presence with freezing.

Key Finding 3

These little girls become relational aliens in their own skin. 
Touch triggers flinch reflexes, even decades later. 
Attachment becomes transactional: love is calibrated, distance is default, and trust is monitored. 
Body image sours: weight gain or loss becomes both defense and accusation.
And with poverty, bullying, absence, and neglect layered on top, identity becomes inert. 
Growth is overruled by survival. 
These little girls become wooden things: hollowed performers who show up and carry on, but inside, nothing moves.

Key Finding 4

These little girls now silenced, carry an unspoken hatred that eventually stains survival with purpose.
These little girls wish the perpetrators would rot slowly. That their eyes crust over and that they smell of the things they buried.
These little girls want to peel their skins off with overgrown fingernails. Pour acid into their morning tea.
These little girls wish to drink both of these perpetrators’ blood so that they can know how it feels to live inside a body. 
These little girls wish that their daughters and unborn children know what their father did. 
These little girls wish no harm to the daughters and the unborn children. 
These little girls do not forgive.
These little girls do not process.